Over the past while I have been writing about the things that scare me, particularly Fukushima. But surely, someone besides me, realized that once the nuclear pile burned through the containment, the situation became horrifying on a global level.
I think we all hope that someone out there has a course of action to rectify the problems that are being created by this disaster. I certainly do, not that I am hoping for a superhero to step in and carry these problems away but I do hope that the politics of greed will be overcome by rational thought.
It's depressing to be on the outside, to be helpless to affect the situation. But are we helpless?
I think that most people feel depressed over the state of the world. So we immerse ourselves in the macro world that we inhabit. We become the persons we can be, parents to our children, brothers to our sisters, friends to our neighbours, believing that these efforts will help to make the world a better place.
Living the 21st century is more complex than ever before. We love, we strive, we hope, we think others should be honest, as we try to be ourselves. But our world is overwhelming. We drive our cars knowing that we are polluting our atmosphere, our children's atmosphere but feel that we must do so to support them, to provide them with an education, to put food on the table. And yet, we know we are wrong.
Our jobs seem important, so important that we lose ourselves in them. But intact, many are senseless, providing little more than money to keep food on the table. We rationalize, we fight the emptiness that we feel inside in whatever way we can. We tell ourselves that these feelings are normal and drug ourselves to make the pain tolerable. Yet, we are constantly surrounded by images, by products and advertising whose sole purpose is to make us uneasy, to make us want to buy, to travel, to experience things that are beyond our daily life rather than to embrace the simple things that make daily life worthwhile.
And in the end, we die. We know that we will die one day and nothing we own, nothing we have accomplished will matter anymore. The damage that we have done will be incurred on our children but for some reason that doesn't matter.
Two years ago, I made a decision to change my life. I moved to a small island in the Salish Sea and have been attempting to simplify; to define the things that give my life meaning and drop the things that are purposeless. To say it has been difficult would be a gross understatement. So much of my identity and self worth is tied up in physical things. Letting go of them has been difficult but I am getting better at it.
I keep telling myself that there is not much that I need. Yet I am surrounded by so much, it's a lot less than I used to have but I don't miss the things I have let go of. I actually feel relieved of their burden and embrace the progress I have made. I am lighter and I live more efficient life. I still have a long way to go but I can see where I am headed now.
Monday, October 21, 2013
Saturday, October 5, 2013
Many years ago, I came across a tiny little booklet that was written by a zen patriarch. As I recall, it cost 25 cents. It seemed to encompass so many ideas in a simple and beautiful way and opened a world of thought for me that I have tried to embrace (not very successfully) as it defines a way of moving through the world in peace.
I gave it away, then I would go back to buy more copies as I gave more away until they were all gone. I missed having it but always remembered the first paragraph. There were many times that I rested myself on this simple piece of wisdom and I would like to share it here.
As I approach the last years of my life now I feel more able to understand the wisdom of this mode of existence. I am slowly letting go of my possessions and looking forward to the freedom of no things. Janis Joplin sang "freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose" and I believe that is another great truth.
We all leave the world empty handed, our deeds the only things that survive. I try to do good things, to be a loving heart, I sometimes fail but that is life. I have no claim to perfection but I can strive for simplicity.
I am leaving soon to be with my sister as she struggles for her life. I see her dignity and her capacity to love those around her despite her pain and sorrow. I am inspired by her brave and loving heart.
Verses on the Faith Mind by The 3rd Zen Patriarch, Sengstau
The Great Way is not difficult for those who have no preferences. When love and hate are both absent everything becomes clear and undisguised. Make the smallest distinction, however, and heaven and earth are set infinitely apart.
If you wish to see the truth then hold no opinions for or against anything. To set up what you like against what you dislike is the disease of the mind.
When the deep meaning of things is not understood the mind's essential peace is disturbed to no avail.
The Way is perfect like vast space when nothing is lacking and nothing is in excess.
Indeed, it is due to our choosing to accept or reject that we do not see the true nature of things.
Live neither in the entanglements of outer things nor in inner feelings of emptiness.
Be serene in the oneness of things and such erroneous views will disappear by themselves.
When you try to stop activity to achieve passivity your very effort fills you with activity.
As long as you remain in one extreme or the other you will never know Oneness.
Those who do not live in the single Way fail in both activity and passivity, assertion and denial.
To deny the reality of things is to miss their reality; to assert the emptiness of things is to miss their reality.
The more you talk and think about it, the further astray you wander from the truth.
Stop talking and thinking, and there is nothing you will not be able to know.
To return to the root is to find the meaning, but to pursue appearances is to miss the source.
At the moment of inner enlightenment there is a going beyond appearance and emptiness.
The changes that appear to occur in the empty world we call real only because of our ignorance.
Do not search for the truth; only cease to cherish opinions.
Do not remain in the dualistic state -- avoid such pursuits carefully.
If there is even a trace of this and that, of right and wrong, the Mind-essence will be lost in confusion.
Although all dualities come from the One, do not be attached even to this One.
When the mind exists undisturbed in the Way, nothing in the world can offend, and when such a thing can no longer offend, it ceases to exist in the old way.
When no discriminating thoughts arise, the old mind ceases to exist.
When thought objects vanish, the thinking-subject vanishes, as when the mind vanishes, objects vanish.
Things are objects because of the subject (mind); the mind (subject) is such because of things (object).
Understand the relativity of these two and the basic reality: the unity of emptiness.
In this emptiness the two are indistinguishable and each contains in itself the whole world.
If you do not discriminate between coarse and fine you will not be tempted to prejudice and opinion.
To live in the Great Way is neither easy nor difficult, but those with limited views are fearful and irresolute; the faster they hurry, the slower they go, and clinging (attachment) cannot be limited; even to be attached to the idea of enlightenment is to go astray.
Just let things be in their own way and there will be neither coming nor going.
Obey the nature of things (your own nature), and you will walk freely and undisturbed.
When thought is in bondage the truth is hidden, for everything is murky and unclear, and the burdensome practice of judging brings annoyance and weariness.
What benefits can be derived from distinctions and separations?
If you wish to move in the One Way do not dislike even the world of senses and ideas.
Indeed, to accept them fully is identical with true Enlightenment.
The wise man strives to no goals but the foolish man fetters himself.
There is one Dharma, not many; distinctions arise from the clinging needs of the ignorant.
To seek Mind with the (discriminating) mind is the greatest of all mistakes.
Rest and unrest derive from illusion; with enlightenment there is no liking and disliking.
All dualities come from ignorant inference. They are like dreams or flowers in air: foolish to try to grasp them.
Gain and loss, right and wrong: such thoughts must finally be abolished at once.
If the eye never sleeps, all dreams will naturally cease.
If the mind makes no discriminations, the ten thousand things are as they are, of single essence.
To understand the mystery of this One-essence is to be released from all entanglements.
When all things are seen equally the timeless Self-essence is reached.
No comparisons or analogies are possible in this causeless, relationless state.
Consider movement stationary and the stationary in motion, both movement and rest disappear.
When such dualities cease to exist Oneness itself cannot exist.
To this ultimate finality no law or description applies.
For the unified mind in accord with the Way all self-centered striving ceases.
Doubts and irresolutions vanish and life in true faith is possible.
With a single stroke we are freed from bondage; nothing clings to us and we hold to nothing.
All is empty, clear, self-illuminating, with no exertion of the mind's power.
Here thought, feeling, knowledge, and imagination are of no value.
In this world of suchness there is neither self nor other-than-self.
To come directly into harmony with this reality just simply say when doubt arises, 'Not two.'
In this 'not two' nothing is separate, nothing is excluded.
No matter when or where, enlightenment means entering this truth.
And this truth is beyond extension or diminution in time or space; in it a single thought is ten thousand years.
Emptiness here, Emptiness there, but the infinite universe stands always before your eyes.
Infinitely large and infinitely small; no difference, for definitions have vanished and no boundaries are seen.
So too with Being and Non-Being.
Don't waste time with doubts and arguments that have nothing to do with this.
One thing, all things: move among and intermingle, without distinction.
To live in this realization is to be without anxiety about non-perfection.
To live in this faith is the road to non-duality, because the non-dual is one with trusting mind.
The Way is beyond language, for in it there is no yesterday, no tomorrow, no today.